I'll take it

It's been a month since I've blogged and I feel horrible.  I had planned on posting at least weekly when I started this, but life just gets in the way.  First I'll start off by saying I've had multiple tests done and I am not in any sort of danger, anymore.  No problems with my ovaries, side pain, head issues.... all my roadblocks have been taken care of and I'm free & clear to lose as much weight as I can work off.  Yay!

However, I'm losing slowly but at least I'm losing.  I've learned that when you lose a little slower, you have a better chance at working out the saggy/loose skin, so that's a plus.  I'm walking, walking, walking... so I know I'm not only losing weight but also gaining muscle, which everyone knows weighs more than fat - so the scale won't always move.

I've notice my clothes fit differently but I don't notice a difference in the mirror, sadly... but I DO have happy moments.  I fit in the movie theater seats (had to see Magic Mike XXL with my girls), my belt is on a different notch, tight necklaces fit a little more loose, some of my bras are a bit too big in the band and I don't run out of breath as quickly as before.  So there ARE plus's still, on my journey, even though the scale doesn't take huge leaps.

My family recently went on vacation, camping!!  Yes!  And I was worried that I'd not lose anything that week, however, I lost 4 whole lbs that week!  Can I get a 'Woop Woop'??  lol.  Another really big, positive thing that happened over the week we were on vacation - was that I went swimming in my suit - no cover up & not ashamed.  I noticed I have a waist, curves and I also noticed I had way more fun when I wasn't worried about how I looked.  I also noticed MOST of the other mothers were on the lounge chairs taking in sun, half covered up.  I WANT to be the mom that has fun with her boys, I want to be the one that gets in the pool.  This surgery is a big step toward that.  So, YES, I got in the pool - every day on vacation.

Right now - my biggest struggle is figuring out which vitamins I need to take and how to take them.  There's a lot of rules that go with taking those along with my other meds, it's confusing and frustrating but I'm going to figure it out.  I have to - cuz I'll be taking these meds for the rest of my life.  I'm also struggling with cooking.  I LOVE to cook - but it's no longer fun to eat.  So I'm trying to find a good balance in that, as well.

As of now - - 10 weeks post op - - I'm down 45 lbs.  I wish it were more, of course, but I had a 2 week stall and many hurdles since then.  But it's a loss and I'll take it.