Before?

I promised pictures.  I spent time doing research and very seldom found pictures that showed the progression of the process.  So no matter how much I hate having my picture taken, I will do it to help others that are searching for a picture-trail.

I recently went to a very fun bachelorette party and pictures were being taken left and right.  I didn't refuse or back away, like I normally do.  So after going through the pictures, I realize this would be a good 'before picture'.... even though I absolutely hate this picture!  It's humiliating and embarrassing and then I realize this is how I look.  This is how others see me on a day-to-day basis.  The difference is that I don't walk around looking at myself every day.... I don't FEEL like I look this way, so my mind tells me I don't.  This is probably an unhealthy way of thinking, but it helps me get through the day and not be embarrassed to go out in public.  So... here it is... a possibly good "before picture".