HAPPY!
I can buy some clothing items from the 'regular sizes' at Walmart. Woo Hoo!! And I don't mean they fit as in "stuffed-sausage", barely-got-them-buttoned type fit... they fit nice. Of course it's forgiving material, cute colors, flattering shapes - - but all in all, I bought a few tops that were NOT in the plus-size section of Walmart. Yes Walmart... I know there's people out there that hate them for whatever reason, but I live in a small-ish town and it's practically a necessity here. I spent, literally, an HOUR today just wandering around the regular-sized ladies section because I have never even glanced at their clothes. I couldn't fit before - so why even look? Well.. now I CAN fit! I got a few sweaters and a handful of tank tops ($1.68 a piece... yes, please!) and some cheap, funky lipsticks - just for fun! Overall... today was a positive day. I'm HAPPY!
Now let's do....
IRRITATED!
I am a part of a few different Weight Loss Surgery Support Facebook pages and as I've mentioned before, there's always a post here and there by someone that rubs me the wrong way. Well, a few days ago, a lady posted a photo of herself eating a GLAZED DONUT! No joke - stuffing her face, while smiling... all happy as hell and PROUD that she's eating a glazed donut. I know, before, I've vented about people cheating on their surgery. However - this lady did not say "I ate a donut, I shouldn't have but I did... "... she was proud that she ate it. She was happy that she didn't become ill from it, like MOST of us with Weight Loss Surgery would. She was NO WHERE NEAR apologetic for it. THEN when she got some backlash from others in the comments she gets upset and snotty.
Look, honey. You are on a weight loss surgery SUPPORT page. NOT a Lets Cheat and Be Proud About It page! I don't want someone holding my hand and leading me in the wrong direction... or nodding their heads, as they watch me go in the wrong direction without helping me do right. We ALL got large on our own... we ALL had weight loss surgery to become healthier and LEARN NEW HABITS!! We did NOT have a life altering surgery so we could (TWO MONTHS AFTER SURGERY) eat a glazed donut and say that we shouldn't deprive myself of a sweet from time to time. Um... Yes! We SHOULD deprive ourselves from time to time! We SHOULD avoid anything glazed. We should avoid circular, carbs drenched in sugar. Her reasoning was that she was craving something sweet - so ONE donut wouldn't hurt. Because in the past, she would have eaten 4 or 5. Ok... honey, again... ONE donut DOES hurt! It hurts your mentality when you are trying to learn new, healthier habits but trying to stay in the frame of mind that cheating here and there is acceptable.
Do I splurge? Do I cheat? Sure.... but not nearly the way this women did. I eat my snap peas with some low fat ranch INSTEAD of just eating the snap peas. Or I'll cheat by putting an extra tablespoon of sugar-free creamer in my coffee. Or suck on a sugar-free piece of hard candy. I could go on and on because my frustration level is through the roof with this lady and her damn glazed donut. For her to cheat and then post a picture of it so proudly in all our faces - - when we are doing our best NOT to eat that LOVELY, DELICIOUS glazed donut is such a bitch move. There I did it - she's a bitch for rubbing it in our faces. So yes.... cheater-cheater-donut-eater, I'm IRRITATED with you!!
Lastly...
STUCK.
I've heard about and read about other people that have had my same exact surgery... and their tolerances for food change with time. About a month ago or 6 weeks ago... my dr's office had given me permission to slowly start eating a few carbs here and there. The healthy type - whole wheat, blah blah blah. I'd have a bite a couple times a week... no big deal. I miss them terribly.... but my dr said it's good for brain function, or something, I don't remember. (Maybe there's something I can eat for memory... but I'd probably forget what that was. Anyhoo...) So, I was SUPER excited when I found whole wheat pastas on sale at my grocery store... and excited when my family no longer cringed at the sight of wheat bread. (Yes... I'm changing my whole family's eating habits... I'm responsible for my children's habits until they are 18, I don't want to screw them up this early!).
Anyway (easily distracted today).... to shorten my story (too late) I can't tolerate bread anymore... of any type. I take one bite. I chew chew chew like the dr tells me... chew the MESS out of it until it's mush, then chew some more... then swallow. Take your time, blah blah blah. I do all that and it gets stuck. Damn it! It gets stuck in my esophagus/pouch/yellow-brick-road to nowhere'sville. I can feel it... like a giant boulder wedged in a drinking straw - bread gets stuck. Pasta expands and I feel nauseous and now bread gets stuck. I'm sharing all this with you - just cuz I'm sad about it... I really miss bread! Carbs. Bread, pasta, rice... I miss all my white-food-friends... can't even tolerate the wheat ones. Ugh!! They get STUCK!
Blah!!
Such is my life...
Thanks for reading!!
Much love,
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