Filling my cup first!

Yes... so, I'm a leggings girl now.  NO, I have NOT lost enough weight to be a sexy, hot momma wearing those skin tight leggings that all the guys stare at her ass.  I AM however, small enough to NOT feel like a big, fat blob wearing something too tight.  I purchased 2 pairs of LuLaRoe leggings and they are A M A Z I N G!  Granted, I've only had them on for about 5 hours at this point, but I don't want to take them off!!  I'm saying this, because this IS due to my weight loss.  In the past, there would be NO amount of money you could give me to get me to wear leggings.  Nope.  Not happening.  However, I've lost enough and am confident enough (getting there) to wear them and be comfortable.  No... probably not running-errands-in-my-LuLaRoe's yet... but I'll be there someday.

I have NOT hit my goal of losing 100lbs by the new year.  I'm ok with that.  Because while in my quest to lose that total of 100lbs by 2016, I realize that I truly have neglected myself, as a whole, for many many years... like so many other mothers do.  And wives.  We are nurturers and take care of everyone before ourselves... and I have had many talks with my grandma, who continually tells me to take care of myself first.  Fill my cup first before filling up everyone else's cup.  SO... I'm OK with NOT losing 100lbs by the new year.  I'm OK with that, because in this quest for my goal, I've realized that I'm an awesome person.  I have a good heart.  I help people, I'm kind, I'm fun, I'm sensitive, I'm bitchy, I'm changed from the mean person I used to be.  I realize that I am a WONDERFUL person.  I am the ONLY flower in my garden that is in desperate need of watering and I need to start with me!  So... I am taking care of myself this year!  I am going to water my garden, take care of myself first - so I am happier and healthier and in a better state to take care of the ones I love around me.... my boys and my husband.

In doing this - I joined a gym.  I know, I know, New Years EVERYONE joins a gym.  However, I paid a chunk in advance AND I got a trainer (also paid in advance).  I do that, so I feel obligated to myself to actually GO and be accountable!  I have gone only a few times so far, and he's kicking my butt, but my trainer Isaac is upbeat, honest, healthy, eager to teach me... and oddly interested in High Fives.  I've never been a fan of High Fives, makes me feel like a 4 year old that just hit the ball off the Tee.... but if he gets motivation from it, so be it.  I'll High Five.  lol.  So far, my biggest enemy isn't my trainer (as I had thought it would be)... it's the backwards elliptical.  I HATE that thing!!  I AM getting used to jelly-legs and having a water bottle near me at all times.  I've given my techy-husband an excuse to splurge on nice headphones for me to use and he also bought me nice work-out shoes.

So far - my biggest success story from the little bit of working out I've done is that I danced at my friends wedding.  I normally can start the cupid shuffle and then I quit halfway through and I'm done for the night.  However, at my friends wedding this past saturday, I danced almost all night (except for the boring songs)... lol.  I wasn't sore, I loved every minute of it.

I've rambled and jumped from topic to topic - but overall - this year, I'm going to take care of me!!  I obviously won't neglect anyone else in my life, but I WILL take care of me.  Yes, grandma, I'll fill my cup first!  And I know in my heart, my whole family will benefit.  I will be happy and healthy this year!!

All for now... 

take care my friend!!